"Because a person smiles all the time
doesn't mean their life is perfect.
That smile is a symbol of hope &
strength."
Don't
Judge a Book By It's Cover
There are those that recognize my name, Robbin Young, because of
my affiliation with Playboy (18 USA & International Playboy Magazine
pictorials), winner of Playboy's 'Search For a James Bond Girl' contest, and my
few roles as an SAG-AFTRA TV / Film actress. In the 80's, I lived in Los
Angeles for 3 years, dated numerous celebrities, and was engaged to Dr. Jerry
Buss (owner of the Lakers). I was a guest at the Playboy Mansion, 24/7. I then
moved back to my hometown in South Florida, where I met a wonderful man and got
married.
Now, my story begins...a synopsis of my life, the past 21 years,
since divorcing and relocating to Las Vegas, Nevada.
I was a single
multi-millionaire from 1997-2008, after owning and operating ski resorts, with
my (now) ex-husband in Jackson Hole, Wyoming. And, NO, I did not ask for half
of everything when we were divorcing. Instead, I fired my attorney (who would
have made the most money in the divorce) and called my husband and said, "Give me enough money so I don't have to work the
rest of my life. " I was tired from five years of work, without a day
off, and I wanted to retire. He was amazed by my lack of greed, and I walked
away with over 5 million dollars. Sadly, we never had children. It would have
been wonderful to have more than money, when remembering our years together as a
loving couple.
I then met and began dating a casino owner, and life was
fun. No, more than fun...it was fantastic! I was independently wealthy, and he
had huge wealth. We became engaged, traveled, and had sex like rabbits. He
made me feel 'special' because he showered me with love and attention. For the first time in years, I was happy and laughed, and I became a
sensual woman. I felt like a sunflower with my head raised to the sky...warm,
bright, and pretty. Life was perfect, until I realized he had MANY other
girlfriends, which I would have understood and accepted, IF he'd been upfront
and honest about it...but, unfortunately, he wasn't. So, I looked the other
way...but after three years of lies, I walked away. Thus, a wall went up around
my heart...No One Would Ever Hurt Me, Again!
Deciding to make Vegas my
home, I purchased a large estate in a guard-gated community, drove a Ferrari
(which I called my 'man magnet'), and I became an Internet dater. Mostly...they
were just young & fun, friends with benefits. I felt safe dating younger
men, as there was less of a risk, they would break through my wall.
I became actively involved
in local charity events and donated time and money to the Cancer, Hospice, Human
Society, and Firefighter's Foundations. I traveled the world, by myself, making
new and dear friends along the way. Life was perfect, but, in a sad and
dysfunctional way. I was not bitter, but instead, I had lost my self
esteem...thinking if men paid attention and desired me, I was special. I soon
learned, Money Does Buy Happiness...But, NOT Love!
In 2007, I trusted a
financial adviser to invest my money. Unfortunately, in 2008, I became
financially insolvent overnight. No money, no home, I learned a valuable
lesson...whom my friends, weren't. The fake friends disappeared, quickly, but
my true friends stand by me...no matter what decisions I make in life to
survive. They are non-judgmental and thus, my friends for life. After trying
to recoup my losses the past 10 years, I'm unable to do so and have now completed
bankruptcy. So, I have no money or assets...but, I am a survivor and will get
through this, as it's just another challenge in my life to overcome. Believe
me, instead of wealth, I'd much prefer if my parents were alive so they would
love and cuddle me, like they always did...I miss them, and their unconditional
love!
And, YES, the past 10 years of my life have been at times, almost
too much to bear. The things I've been put through, are beyond a normal
person's comprehension. I thank God my parents instilled the faith of
Christianity in my life...so no matter what gets thrown at me, I may want to die
for (one minute) but then a calmness comes over me and I think rationally. It's
as though I suddenly feel as if someone has their arms around me, holding me and
making me feel safe...Of course, it's my Savior embracing me.
I'm a
good person and certainly don't deserve the mental and physical stress I'm being
put through, but, I never question "Why?"
I know God has a special plan for me and what I'm experiencing and
having to endure, is all part of the 'Master Plan.' As much crap that's thrown
at me, I still have a positive outlook on life and love for all mankind and I
hope to share my positive energy with the world, by someday becoming an author
and motivational speaker.
Through all the adversity in my life the past 10 years, I've never taken anti-depressants, never been drunk, never used illegal
drugs. Why? Because the nights my stomach growls with hunger pains, when
sadness overwhelms me and I cry myself to sleep, when I feel there is no
hope...I want to remember EXACTLY how I feel and not be numb with chemicals.
How else can I motivate others to HOLD ON, TO NEVER GIVE UP, TO BELIEVE IN
THEMSELVES, if I haven't felt the highs and lows of what I'm going through.
My faith in God and my passion for life lifts my spirits and gives me
hope. My love of pleasing and entertaining, sustains my earthly needs by
providing me with food, shelter, and the companionship, laughter,
friendships...I desire and deserve.
Without a doubt, I will rise like a
Phoenix from the ashes and once again soar the skies!
I'm a fiercely
independent, proud woman, and do NOT want sympathy. I
merely want to share my story and feelings with others to motivate and remind
them:
THIS IS NOT A DRESS REHEARSAL, MAKE EVERY MOMENT
COUNT!
Sincerely,
Robbin
Praise the Lord, I'm proud to share this glorious news...
I became Ordained Minister, Reverend Robbin Young on May 20, 2018.